The InBetween Times: Dealing with Bipolar Disorder

Struggling with bipolar disorder, anxiety and depression all together at the same time is not cute. And dealing with obesity at the same time even worst. Things have not been easy for me. Its a constant pressure in your life that does not seem to go away. Its pressure from your peers, your family, your friends, yourself. Living with these is horrible and not a pretty sight. I have struggled with self-image problems since I was a little girl, and have gone to all kinds of doctors to see if they could help me lose weight or help me with my anxieties. This year I got diagnosed with depression and bipolar disorder. I have more than 2 manic episodes a year along with an ongoing bout of depression that makes me want to stay home all day, quit my perfectly fine job, and stop eating or in some cases eating everything I see. Being in a life of inbetweens is not pretty and I wont sugar coat it. It is ugly, your mind becomes a Black hole that keeps us sucking everything good out of your life. I like to call that black hole, Satan.

Because it is Satan that makes your life a living hell. Satan wants to take everything from you and he uses those of a weak mind to perpetuate himself in the world. However, that is when God comes into the plan. God looks out for us at any occasion. God can make things happen or let them happen for reasons that are not up to us to know, but for our father in heaven to decide. Me having bipolar disorder, depression, and extreme anxiety will make me stronger. I will not allow for these things to control my life. Only God has control over my life. I will continue to work hard to control my disorders, and I will continue to go to God to stop the black hole that is Satan. My main black hole is my obesity.

Dealing with obesity has been a struggle of mine since I was a young girl. Always the chubbiest, always the nerdy big girl that wanted to belong. While I carry my weight extremely well, being obese is not something I want. I wish I could be in a healthy weight where no one would ask me what diet I was on, or when I was going to the gym or why I was eating the ice cream bar. Being told you are fat in the middle of the street in London while walking from a Bible discussion is not pretty. Living in a world were if you are not thin you are wrong, its a nightmare. However,  I know I have to lose weight, I know that being healthy is more than just being thin. I have tried it all. I have dieted, I have gone to nutritionist, I have looked into surgery, I have gone to the gym, I was in dance, I have done it all! And nothing. That really does not help your depression and anxiety. You start wondering what is wrong with you, why you cannot change. However, I know this is a challenge I must conquer. This is the thorn in my flesh just as Paul had one during the first century. 

Living a life of In-between times is not something that anyone wants to live through. That is why it is important to walk in the light, because otherwise Satan and his crazy, manipulative, dark black vortex will come to you like a tornado, coming out of nowhere to take you out. God is good. God is life. God is everything we need and everything that we have. Walk in the light and allow God to guide you in moments like those in the In-between,

Study Abroad Tips

Do and Don’t of Studying Abroad

Here are the Do and Don’t of Studying Abroad! With Pictures!!!!!!!

Do: Travel!

Travelling is an essential part of studying abroad. You study abroad for the reason of getting to know new cultures and new parts of the world. So, TRAVEL, and get to know the country you are studying abroad or even the continent as I did!

Don’t: Stay in your room all day.

Unless you are sick, DO NOT STAY IN YOUR ROOM ALL DAY! It will hinder your experience as a study abroad student. I know some day I would have my down days and stay in all day, and all it did was make me feel worst. So, go shopping, enjoy your town, get coffee and brownies with friends, do something, anything outside to keep you out of your room!

Do: Meet new people in societies.

Some of my best friends while I was studying abroad I met them in my seminars. Do the same, go to specialty seminars, societies, extracurricular activities, any kind of club that is instructive, even go to the gym. Making friends while you study and exploring town with them will make your trip more memorable than without them.

Don’t: Isolate yourself.

I have done that before. I did it on the week of New Years Eve and it was the worst mistake ever. I should have stayed with friends and enjoyed my time. Isolating yourself will do you no good while you are studying abroad. Isolation will just lead to depression and you definitely do not want that.

Do: Take vitamins.

TAKE YOUR VITAMINS! Seriously, you will get sick at some point and that last thing you want is a weak immune system. So plain and simple, take care of yourself.

Don’t: Wait too long to make a GP/Doctor’s appointment.

Everything I got sick, and I got sick a lot, I always waiting until the last minute to make a GP appointment and ended up having to go to an urgent care clinic. Do yourself a favor and if you need to see the doctor because your meds are low make that appointment ASAP!

Do: Get to know your city or town.

Seriously, get to know your city or town. It is essential for your personal growth. Getting to know your city will help you feel more at ease and familiar with your new home. Whether you are studying abroad for the summer, a semester or a year or two, make sure to know the place you live in.

Don’t: Go to the library at noon.

Everyone has the same idea of going in between classes. Do yourself a favor and go after 4 pm or before 10:30 anything between that time will get you no computers and very long lines for everything.

Do: Do your assignments.

I cannot make this more clear. DO YOUR WORK! You went there to study. Then, STUDY!

Don’t: Leave your essay for the week of.

I cannot make this point more important then this: DO YOUR WORK AHEAD OF TIME! Do not leave your work for the last minute, you might be able to pass it one time but not always so give yourself plenty of time to finish your work.

Do: Pack lightly.

You do not need 3 bag to move anywhere unless you are moving to a 3rd world country and even then. Don’t make the mistake I make and pack lightly!

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This is the most important lesson of all. ENJOY YOUR TIME ABROAD. No matter what country you are going to live or are already living in, make sure to enjoy every second of it, take photos and make memories!