Now that I am free to scream to the wind that I have been accepted into a PhD program for Modern Languages and Cultures, I can say what I am specializing about without going to into my research ideas.
So, lets start off by saying that I have changed my mind about what I wanted to focus on more times than I changed my major during undergrad, and I changed my major 5 times. I started with wanting to study Robin Hood, then Russian royal history, then moved onto the War of Spanish Succession and the Hapsburg, to the Spanish Armada, to finally end with the Spanish Civil War. And then when I was studying the Spanish Civil War during my masters I changed my mind about what aspect about the SCW I wanted to study. Thankfully all the changing came to an end when I encountered the greatest term ever: Historiography, the history of history.
History is a passion of mine. Always has been. I just cared too much about what people thought of my studies than anything else, that is why I changed my major way too many times. Once I finally decided that history was it for me. I started planning for a PhD in the future. I tried to figure out what I wanted to start focusing on instead of just jumping around. However, as my earlier explanation of my change of topics shows, I changed my mind several more times. Once I discovered my passion for learning about Spain, the land of my ancestors and the birthplace of my native language, I decided that was where I was going to stay at. However, that did not mean I was not going to change my mind regarding what exactly about Spain I was to study. I went from being in love with Early modern Spanish History to becoming obsessed with Modern Spanish History in 6 months. On the second semester of my Master’s degree, after a seminar on Francoist repression after the Spanish Civil War by who was later ended up supervising my dissertation, I completely changed gears and started reading up on the SCW (short for Spanish Civil War).
My fascination with the SCW started by my interest in war, religion and repression. Later, my focus moved to historiography, memory and commemoration of the SCW. The historiography of the SCW is a tumultuous area that needed to be addressed, therefore I wrote by Master’s dissertation on it and earned a high merit. It would have been higher if I was better with my grammar, something I am still working on, and why I am trying to write more often in this blog. Now, I am focusing on the commemoration and memory of the Spanish Civil War. This is a topic that feel very passionate about, and I can’t wait to be about to further research the topic and dive deeper into the memory and commemoration of Spanish Civil War.
So that is how I made it to study the Spanish Civil War and what I will be studying for the next 3 to 4 years of my life. I cannot wait until I get to the UK and start digging into my studies. For now, all I can do is search for sources and start getting some reading done.